Bro had left for England.
Actually since a very long time, I wasnt too close with him.
Esp when I've grown up,I find it hard to speak with him.
Carrying a decent conversation is kinda awkard.
I dunno why.
Yes...I do some kinda abominate him for being so 'useless' most of the time.
I really wish that he is some elder brother that I can look up to,be proud of and really talk with.

I told pple that I aint very close with my elder bro.
And I am envious of Vonny having such a close relationships with her brothers,esp the elder one.
Envious of Wengkin is such a rare,doting and in fact over zealous doting kinda brother.
Lol.

Come to think of it..honestly speaking..my brother hasnt been too nasty to me.
I will always remember that he once bought me a pair of Adidas sports shoes costing $60 odd with his pay.
That was when I was 15.
I was really happy then.Even till poly year 1,I was still wearing that shoes till I have decided it is really boyish and cost my toes pain.

And I know that I always wanted to buy him a wallet for his bday.
But till now,I havent done so.
Coz sometimes I just dun think he really deserves my gift.
Sad to say that,but this is true.

But I thought...at least I did loan him SDG$300.I know it is really not alot,esp when it is converted to pounds.
But really,I havent intend him to return me at all.
I am sure I would have lend more if I have the capacity.

Right now...I just pray and wish that he will finally do well over there.
Of coz i wanted him to return back.
But I only want him to return with pride and success.
It wouldnt be easy for him.

I know that my parents,despite the numerous scoldings and arguements with him over this issue alone,must have felt sad inside.
My parents aint the cold type.They just dont bring their real thoughts and shy to pronounce them on face.

So whatever it is....I just pray that everything would be alright.
Though it is really harder to do than say.

Suddenly I realise how lonely the house would be after my parents fly to China,which is only like next week.
Only my bro & me.
I promised myself that I must be a good disciplinarian during this 2 weeks.
I gotta spend the time really,really bonding with my brother.

I have commit the mistake of not doing so with my elder brother and now is kinda too shy to do so.
We have kinda grew distant from each other,though sometimes we still talk a lil,him giving sweets to me etc.

Hope I will never be too late to still really,have a good bond with my elder one , and then now my lil brother.

God...I am never late,am I?

Of coz matters always take two hands to clasp.
My hand is out there...now.
=)